Already All I need ...

God has been using a song to pierce my heart lately.  As I was listening to it play the other day, and even familiar enough with the lyrics to sing along, I began to REALLY hear the words.  And I found myself in tears with my hands in the air and knees to the ground in worship.  Woah.

And for the last few days this music has become my obsession. I hear it in my head all day long. And I must be singing it aloud because I heard Sophie humming it this morning. **happy face**  But as I have pondered over the words, I have come to a place of realization that has just slammed me in the face and altered the way I pray.

See, God is showing me how many times I say "I need me more Jesus" or "Jesus I need more of You" or "More YOU Lord, more You". But now I am seeing that, truly, if ANYONE is lacking in this relationship, it sure as shootin aint Him!!! So, I guess that means it's me.

ouch.

The first lines of the song say:

Asking where You are Lord, wondering where You've been

Is like standing in a hurricane, tryin to find the wind

Yeah ... that.

Maybe I need to change my prayer to "I need me more Becky Jo ... Becky Jo in SEARCH of You Jesus. In relentless pursuit of Your will.  More Becky Jo, face down at the foot of Your cross. More Becky Jo LOVING You ... and loving others LIKE you.  More Becky Jo soaking in the Word and living it out. More Becky Jo chasing after Your will, Your heart, Your presence, YOU!  More me seeking to be LESS me and more of YOU.  More You IN me ... less me, more You." 

And, maybe, if that WAS my prayer, maybe the "I need more Jesus" prayer would be more of an "I need more Jesus IN me" and less of an "I need more Jesus FOR me"  prayer.

Because, really, he IS already all I need. But think of how He could use me, what He could do through me ... through ALL of us ... if I (we) were all HE needs me (us) to be.

And, oh yes, I want to be used by Him.

Use me here Lord, USE ME HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Asking where You are Lord, wondering where You've been

Is like standing in a hurricane trying to find the wind

And hoping for Your mercy to meet me where I am 

Is forgetting that your thoughts for me outnumber the sand.

You filled the sun with morning light

You bid the moon to lead the night

You clothe the lilies bright and beautiful.

You're already all I need

Already everything that I could hope for 

You're already all I need

You've already set me, already making me more like you

You're already all I need

Jesus, You're already all I need.

Walking through this life without your freedom in my heart

Is like holding onto shackles, that You have torn apart

So remind me of your promises and all that You have done

In this world I will have trouble, but You have overcome

And every gift that I receive, You determine just for me

But nothing I desire compares to You

You're already all I need

Already everything that I could hope for 

You're already all I need

You've already set me, already making me more like you

You're already all I need

Jesus, You're already all I need.

In your fullness, You're my all in all

And in your healing, I'm forever made whole

And in your freedom, Your love overflows and carries me

You carry me, yes You carry me, You carry me

You're already all I need

Already everything that I could hope for 

You're already all I need

You've already set me, already making me more like you

You're already all I need

Jesus, You're already all I need.

Already all I need

Yes Lord ... YES